Sunday, August 24, 2008

AND THE SAGA CONTINUES....../.

NOW WHERE WAS I ........



Dads in ccu hes not breathing to good and my big brother is on his way its now 8pm and we have been here all day. Amanda came up from wellington and is here for the week





Jillian my new daughter in law tobe has arranged things at work so i can be up at the hospital as they have told us dad isnt expected to make it. :-( Im sitting in his room when he informs me mum is here now im worried as mum died 16 yeasrs ago so is she here to take him away or to reasure him he gonna b ok?



So i just say HI MUM but its to late shes gone oh well maybe she will come back im real upset as dads dying and im alone in his room then me brother turns up and we have the best chat we have ever had.



Dad is in and out of it but we manage a few words which where special



Mark tells dad that on the way from rotorua he was trying to think of his time with dad but couldnt think of any good memorys and Dad said he wasnt a good dad had no time for us and he was sorry for that then he said something that made my whole upbringing finally make sense he waid that out of all the kids (there are 7 of us) 1 was picked on the most. Yip you guessed it he said it was Sandra (i knew this as i allways thout i got the raw end of things ) it was just so cleansing finally having some one say they were sorry for the way i had always been treated.



SUNDAY

Dad makes thru the night. I have a house fill of people my brother Mark is staying Neils cousin and his partner and kids where there when we got home last night so there are bodies everywhere i just have to get out im not coping to many people to feed and not enough food so i went shopping Mark comes along and helps replenish my cubboards as we have my sisters coming over from aussie.

We arrive at the hospital dad is not doing well hes kidneys are failing he cant speak to good its realy heartbreaking to watch, mum has been back and bugger me if my brother dosnt go and knock her over scared the shit out of us all when dad started going crazy at him poor stephen doesnt know what to do he couldnt see her we all ask where she is before we move as we dont want to go knocking her over again.

its now 11pm and the fone goes we need to get up to the hospital ASAP so me and mark go as fast as i can drive and bugger me if i dont beat him to dads room (he has running medals) lol me training is paying off i think.

Dads not to good wants to sort his funeral hes been blacking out so wants to put things in order. Doc not happy with his progress told us get family over asap

IM BACK.............

Well last time i blogged i said it was a nighmare week WELL GUESS WHAT its been a NIGHTMARE 5 WEEKS.
Let me explain
on the 18th july my son geoffrey had his engagement party I was doing the catering (the good mum that i am) and it all started badly when i pulled a muscle in my back so to get thru all the things i had to do i just popped a pill and off i went but me back didnt like that so i took a stronger pill. My lovely friends from my soccer team (GO THE MUPPETS) came and gave me a hand i would have been screwed without them i can tell ya.
Then my dad turned up and he was mad as he hadnt got an invite ( yes he did he just forgot) so when we finally get home to get changed i sit down and bugger me if i dont go and have a slight little HEART ATTACK got rushed to the docs who put me in an ambulance and sent me to hospital and you guessed it i missed the party.

At the hospital they found a heart murmer and high blood pressure and asked me if i was under any stress DERRRRRRRRR my whole life is stressful what with the lightening strike, sons engagement, my dads deterating health , not to mention my job it gets a bit much sometimes but i manage you just do eh
Well that put paid to me playing soccer on the the sunday the coach and the doc said NO so i wnt and watched :-(

Well all week i was knackered it just took all me energy to get round so i took the saturday of weightwatchers and slept in

THEN ME FONE GOES nads its my sister from aussie she had juwst rung dad and was concerned with his breathing so i rang me big sis who lives round the corner and wake her up (shes a night nurse in a nd e) she said just check hes taken his meds so off i go i had me sister txting me from aussie telling me hes real bad and then another txt saying dads rung an ambo love and death
i didnt check the sender just thout it was my sis telling me he was dying so i put me hazzard lights on and speed like crazy didnt do me heart any good i can tell ya
When i get to his place which is 20 mins from mine i find me brother in law there hes rung the ambo seems love and death is my nephews signiture on his fone (little shit) so he got a telling off and changed it pronto
Well dad was in a bad way i went in the ambo with him to the hospital where my sister met us and there we waited while they tried to stablize him.
they transfered him to CCU he had phenumonia, kidney failure and he was septic as he hadnt done anything bout his legs being ulcerated what a mess
well i have to go and help Neil clean the carpets but i will be back to finish off me story till later