WELL ITS HAPPENING

After 9 gruelling months im about to be a NANA shit im a bit scared i never been a nana before so i hope im gonna be a good one.

Ive rung my dad and told him his Great grandson is on his way so hes excited but now im a bit worried bout the next phase in me life i never been an orphan before either :-(

will keep u all updated on the progress

WELL HES BACK IN HOSPITAL :-(

I got a fone call this morning at 5.30 from my sister Erica dad was taken to hospital at 3am my brother and her thout they would let me sleep as dad has had me running around for him over the last few days and they both new i wasnt coping.

So up i went at 8.30 he was having heart trouble and his breathing wasnt the best, his ankles are now swelling so his kidneys are failing again he keeps bugging me bout Brock wants to see him before he goes.

The specialist Dr Holst (Yip thats right Alisons daughter) shes really nice and concerned bout dad she thinks that maybe we look at putting dad into a hospital wing in a rest home as he needs more care than the home can give him he was concerned about where we are going to put him as he really likes the home that hes in so he said he would only go into Combrae in feilding so we have to have family meeting and see his social worker that is if he survives this episode.

well the rain has stopped and the sun is now shining so i better go and do the dishes

LETS HOPE NEXT YEAR IS BETTER

Cause god knows i cant take much more of this crap.

Dads not to good hes been in and out of hospital and its putting a real strain on me heart Ive not told neil bout the pains he just dont seem to understand what im going thru both of his parents are still here and now im gonna be an orphan any day now and i feel so alone.

When you watch someone dying its the hardest thing in the world.

The neighbours are really pissing everyone off they have gone and chained the only remaining gate and that bloke actually owns the driveway man what a ruckess that caused he cut the chain and lock and then ran over the gate when the neighbours were approached they had the nerve to say it was us we think hes trying to cause trouble the bustard the neighbour told him in now if you ever lock me gate again there will be more trouble than he can handle so lets hope he listens eh.

Well chrisy has been and gone and im so looking forward to next year
Brock is nearly here hes giving his mum a bit of a hard time hes not in the right position and shes havin real probs with her back.
Dad has told the home hes just waiting to see Brock thens its all over.
Brock will be his first greatgrand child and hes so looking forward to meeting him so im excited about Brock coming but sad at the same time cause i know as soon as im a nana dad will give up so its real hard at the mo eh.
well the dishes are waiting so chow for now